New Years Eve (again....)

The clock says 10:31

The year's still twenty ten

An hour and 29 minutes

And what will happen then?

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Everyone is counting down

To the start of a new year

They're all just so excited

But I'm just filled with fear

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I don't know what's coming

I don't know what's next

But I can't imagine it's good

When I seem to be hexed

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Will this year hold more pain?

More sorrow? More despair?

Will anything change my life?

Wake me from this nightmare?

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Cause nothing ever changes

Everything still hurts

Nothing gets "all better"

Despite my best efforts

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I wish I could just leave

This world so full of pain

But no matter what I try

I still seem to remain

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So I'll fake a smile at midnight

And cheer the New Year in

But the delight will be a facade

I'll be silently screaming within