UNSTABLE

I'm not strong enough for this

It's simply, just too hard

I can't ever relax

There's no letting down my guard

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Every class talks about something

That hits too close to home

I cry, dissociate & panic

And then write another poem

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I'm too much like the clients

Or, rather, they're too much like me

If I have these problems myself,

How can I help them to see?

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They'll see that I'm not normal

They'll see that I'm a mess

They'll see that I'm not stable

Everyone will start to guess

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They'll make assumptions about what's wrong

And what I can & can't control

They'll assume with all my problems

There's no way I could be whole

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And the assumptions will be right

I'm a broken little girl

I've been broken for so long

I'll always be this ugly knurl

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I'm wrapped around this shattered identity

That's been mine for far too long

And now it's all I have

This feeling that I'm wrong

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That's what everyone sees

Because it's what I know

I'll always be unstable

and it will always show