St. Louis- #3

I'm so sick and tired

Of not being believed

They say coming here was my choice

But I feel I've been deceived

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Here, when I speak,

It's all a lie

When I weep, I am told

"Just 'choose' not to cry"

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I'm tired of everyone thinking

That I chose to be this way

No one wants to live like this

No matter what they say

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I'm telling the truth

Why do they always question it?

All of this mistrust

Just makes me want to quit

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I want to go home to my parents

At least they usually believe me

I won't be babysat

Or held under lock and key

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Maybe I don't even need to go home

I really just want a way out

So I'll kill myself while I'm here

Death is one thing they can't doubt

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For once you're dead, you're dead

No if's, and's, or but's

I'll finally be gone

My eyes forever shut