Death Between Death

Too cold to feel loved
too loved to feel alone
too alone to hold on
death between death

too much pain, she goes numb
too numb to feel dead
too dead to stay alive
death between death

too responsible to go
too desperate to stay
too realistic to wait any longer
death between death

Temporary Death

I won't forget it
it won't go away
the more i try not to
i think of that day

i was so open
so trusting and dumb
it was going alright
then my brain went all numb

you touched me in places
that you never should
and i didn't say a thing
didn't think that i could

though the trauma's now over
the scars still run deep
so i retreat to my room
and i cry till i sleep

sleep-
-after hours and hours of awakened consciousness

sleep-
-because that sense of being is what makes me so damn afraid

sleep-
-my own temporary death