I Can't

I don't think I can do this

The urge is gonna win

I'm just not strong enough

And I want to give in

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I know that I shouldn't

I know I should fight

But it's all just too much

Especially tonight

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There's too much heartache

Too much pain

And it hurts too much

To try and maintain

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I just want to cut

See the blood running free

So I'll know my heart's beating

Inside of me

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Or else burn myself

Let the blister rise

Then pop it and with it

All my anguish dies

--

Or if I could just smoke

It would at least reduce the need

Maybe long enough

For something else to intercede

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But I can't cut

I can't burn

I can't smoke

I only yearn

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So for now I'm stuck here

I can't even sleep

So I lie in my bed

And it hurts, and I weep