Fear

fear of the past
fear of the future
fear of the dark
or fear of failure

fear of God
fear of success
fear of the unknown
or fear of illness

fear of reactions
fear of pain
fear of the outcome
fear of change

fear of monsters
fear of insecurity
fear of knowledge
and responsibility

fear of lost control
fear of aging
fear of not being good enough
fear of losing

fear of consistancy
fear of ones enemies
fear of what you've seen
fear of consuming calories

fear of crime
fear of winning
fear of death
and fear of living

fear of blood
fear of fat
fear of what you feel
fear of mice and rats

fear of what you've heard
fear of eating
fear of yourself
or waking up tomorrow morning

what's the scariest thing in the whole world?

nothing

If One Day....

if one day

you should find me

lying on the floor

unconscious and not breathing

without a pulse or a heartbeat

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i'm sorry

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if one day

you should find me

dead

lying in a puddle of my own blood

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i'm sorry

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if one day

you should find me

hanging

literally, at the end of my rope

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i'm sorry

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if one day

the police should come to the door

to tell you they've found my body

on the train tracks

or on the highway

or floating in the lake

and i'm gone

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i'm sorry

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but-

if one day

you should find me

smiling and laughing

wearing short sleeves

or a bathing suit

and there aren't any scars

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please take a picture

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so that i can look at it and know

that dreams really can come true